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03/08/25 (Saturday)

hi!! this is my very first blog post. how exciting!

I've been having an awesome time. yesterday I saw one of my best friends in a musical! it was super fun. I went with a mutual friend of ours, and we picked up flowers + a monster for him because he's addicted to caffeine. how fun. when we got there, I saw some friends I hadn't seen in forever so we sat with them and caught up and whatnot. the friend I had in the show said he could see the flash of my camera. oops... I didn't even get any good pictures to embarrass him with, either.

today was rad too. I hung out with my musical pal because we haven't seen each other in a while (+ another mutual friend of ours). we made some stuff out of dollar store clay, got a coffee(? it might have just been chai actually) that tasted like the christmas section of a walmart, and played uno in the most incredible (and safe... sarcasm) hangout spot I've ever seen. gotta keep it in mind for this summer... anyways musical guy won uno who cares he probably cheated I don't even care it's just a game...... they also got some beanie babies at our FAVORITE (!!!!!!) antique store because they have a crap ton of them for just 2 bucks each. I think I have like 5 already so I didn't get any new ones haha. anyways at the risk of sounding incredibly attention seeking, I hate it when people only tell the best parts of their lives online, so yeah I did end up dissociating really badly + went home early. and then I coded this wonderful page and wrote this!!!! everyone say thank you cal for scowering the interwebs for how to code those tabs up there!!! shoutout my friends for being very nice and cool and understanding about my genuinely awful stinky anxiety. they're real ones fr. I also demolished two oranges earlier while catching up on youtube stuff. very peak night activities. ok bye I need to pass out I've been up for everrrrrr goodnight.

03/26/25 (Wednesday)

ohmygod this blog page needs a new layout so bad this physically pains me to look at. but i'm gonna finish the homepage first. honestly not even sure what i'd change about this page it's so. ugh.

anyways i fear my blog posts will make it painfully clear that I only leave my house like once a week for guitar lessons (thats a huge lie i do actually have a life) so uhhh. anyways i went to guitar lessons the other day and the place i go to is also a record store (peak selection btw i got some tv girl records there a few weeks ago and i'm saving up for another) and there was a stack of free posters wahoo!!! so i grabbed one, but it's double sided and both sides are so cool. how could they do this to me. there were also two other posters with artists i've never heard of but that won't stop me from getting them next week. ughhhhh also i got a sublime record there like a million bajillion years ago and its so nasty you really can't even listen to it (cough definitely not because I didn't know how to clean it... cough...) and i've been meaning to bring it in but i keep forgetting. someone remind me to bring it next week (talking to a wall)

umm in other news. gonna get real here for a sec. I used to have a sort of situationship?? not sure if you could even call it that. it was psychological warfare. BUT good news is i've moved on!!! insert that one picture of the person breaking the handcuffs infront of a sunset. i'm over it!!! i do not want to date anybody ever because i'm way too cool. anyways i wanted to share with the class because I'm proud of myself OK MOVING ON.... throws up

the splort brainrot is back. the splotch. the squitch. i thought it was gone for good. aughhh hes taking over my brain in a sinister way!!!!!!!1 its every summer that it kicks in i swear (ignore the fact that its spring). I was planning on making a spiderverse shrine because obviously, but then i realized it would probably just be him and gwen cause they're my favorites. AND NOIR........ my beloved. but umm yeah i can't wait for the next movie to drop so people will finally remember that loser because all the fanfics about him are from 2023 and it makes me sad. insert a really good segway

i'm getting into digital art!!! i got procreate on my ipad a while ago and forgot about it but i'm back on that grind now. i'm working on some style studies on there right now woohoo!! nobody's surprised that one of them is of arcane. my goal is to improve my art before i start my next sketchbook, and i'm almost done with my current one, which i think is almost two years old?? maybe like one and a half. its literally unc. but yeah if that says anything about how motivated i am to draw... half of it isn't even drawing its just scrapbooking. like would it kill you to draw. an eye. I never draw cause i'm like "oh it won't look good, i don't even have an art style.." THEN?? GET ONE????? ugh so i started studying anatomy. and i mean studying as in like. the loosest of terms. just figure drawings mostly but thats fine.

okok i'm done procrastinating i have to go work now. sigh off to the mines i go. puts on a hardhat and grabs a comically large pickaxe and walks away slowly hanging my head. bye bye!!!!!

03/29/25 (Saturday)

how come these blog posts are getting longer and longer each time i post...

greetings once more. yes this is the best thing i have to do on this lovely saturday. i lovelovelove posting on here but i was like "oh no i shouldn't post stuff too quickly people will get annoyed" but then i realized idgaf. like thats literally why i made my website in the first place... so i can be annoying... plus i love when people i follow post stuff frequently. so ummmm yeah heres another absurdly long blog post!!!!

as you can probably tell, i'm SO burnt out on coding. everything that's been done on this site so far was done in the span of like. a few weeks if i'm not mistaken. which if you're super good at coding, that probably wouldn't be a big deal, but i'm learning as i go, so it was just a lot to be doing. i do have to say though, this is one of those instances where i'm really glad i'm not going to public school anymore (i'm homeschooled. gets hit in the face with a tomato) because I was able to dedicate so much time to learning a new hobby, especially something as complicated as coding. so yay win!!!

speaking of homeschooling though... i went homeschooled fairly recently, like december i believe. halfway through the school year... which was totally rad... (lying) but i'm glad it happened when it did because i had gym 2nd semester and that's like actual torture for someone with severe anxiety. i was also getting like semi-bullied? nobody was really consistently making fun of me to my face but nearly everybody made it pretty clear that they didn't like me. such are the consequences of being really cool, i guess... just kidding its because i'm a queer person in an overwhelmingly republican small town. which isn't to say that i don't have any support system or anything, because i do, but it just got way too overwhelming to go to the place where so many people hate me 5 days a week and be expected to do well there. (edit: this makes it sound like i was a huge loser LOL and i know it sounds like i'm lying now but i do have lots of friends. lots of weed smoking girlfriends too /ref)

anyways. i'm thinking a lot about my future, and i'm really excited. this might out me as a stinky little minor but i've never really had any idea what i want to do when i'm out of highschool. not a solid one, at least. i thought maybe i'd be like, an author or artist of some sort, but that doesn't seem realistic anymore unfortunately. fun fact, my 4th grade teacher said the big ass NOVEL that i wrote for class (for some reason? we didn't have to write that much LMAO) had him on the edge of his seat. that single comment has been the source of my writing ego since. i really want to start writing on ao3 but i'm afraid my parents will see what else is on that hellsite and not let me. that makes me sound like a toddler. no my parents just don't want me getting groomed or whatever. which is. valid. but anyways yeah i think i want to pursue computer science-y stuff in college. or maybe film?? i've always been into the behind-the-scenes of entertainment.

another thing i'm thinking about regarding my future is medically transitioning. i can't remember if i've mentioned it anywhere on here, but i'm trans! how fun. if anyone knows any nice trans-friendly countries to move to please lmk LMAO. i plan on getting out of america asap once i'm done with school and everything. but anyways a well known fact about me is that i'm fucking PETRIFIED of needles. i've tried literally everything. i remember when i had to get whatever shots before i went into 8th grade and i was literally doing like therapy on myself to be ok (spoiler: it did not work) and looking back, it literally wasn't even that bad. it didn't hurt at all, and one of the shots i had to get was like, for tetanus or something?? idk everyone was talking about how big the needle was and how bad it hurt. but it only hurt afterwards lol. but phobias aren't rooted in facts so whatever. i'm still scared of needles. stupid ape brain.

oh but back on topic. obviously you can see how being afraid of needles is going to absolutely blow when i start my transition. i don't plan on doing t as an injection, i've seen they have like gel stuff or whatever other alternatives, so i'll probably just do those. i was going to add that i'm scared of surgeries as well, but i'm not really scared of surgery itself, just the needles involved haha. so recovering from top surgery will be my BIGGEST nightmare. but i plan on getting some piercings as a kind of exposure therapy i guess? i also think the purpose of the needles will soften the blow a bit, because ultimately it's only helping me out. sorry this might be a tad tmi haha.

ummmm in my last blog post i mentioned finally being over that situationship... which sucks. crushes are so fun (unless they're like the dude that i liked. no hate he's just insane) so now i'm just really bored. and it's kind of the most difficult thing ever to meet new people since i went homeschooled (audience boos) but theres a punk show i can hopefully go to next month so maybe i'll make some friends there.

ugh omg the yappinator over here. but this is my website so i'll talk about whatever i want. sorry this is so long though. bye hope you have a nice rest of ur weekend!!!!!!

04/01/25 (Tuesday)

HIIIIII!!!!!!

ok I'm seriously so proud of myself with this page. I literally did this in TWO DAYS... unheard of. for me atleast because I suck at coding in a big way. but anyways. LOOK AT MY COOL NEW FONT!!!!!! it took forever because apparently I've never used a computer before???? and I had SO much fun making the little gif of my journal opening... thats my real desk!!!!!! also you can't really tell because I had to crop it, but thats snoopy in the top left haha. also happy april fools!!!

ok this morning I had a bagel with cream cheese for breakfast and its the happiest I've ever been. it was so fire. and last night I grabbed some more of those free posters, and I also got a free pin!!! I love free stuff. I put the pin on my little snoopy.

ummm not much else to talk about, just wanted to add something here in honor of the new blog page!!! woohoo!!!!!!!! everyone say congratulations to me RIGHT NOW. ok byeee!!!!!!! :D

heres an image. for your troubles

04/05/25 (Saturday)
life is cool sometimes actually

hi hello hiii!!!!!! I have so much to talk about!!!!!!!!

ok today was so awesome. i rearranged some stuff in my room and i really like it. i also changed my sheets + pillowcases from spiderman to minecraft... can you guess why. i'm sure you're on the edge of your seat... i went to see the minecraft movie with a friend and it was so much fun. i was really scared it would be bad and make me suddenly hate one of my favorite things, but it was actually the most fun i've had in a long time. part of the reason for that was probably that we saw it in 4D. which is like... the seats shake and stuff like that. that is such an understatement because when the one guy gets his buttcheeks grabbed i FELT IT IN MY SEAT.... crazy. but that was so fun because we never knew when the stuff was coming.

but anyways i'm really glad i asked my friend to go with me because it was probably the best hangout ever. obviously nobodys expecting the minecraft movie to be groundbreaking cinema so everybody was whispering the whole time. we kept saying "erm actually..." when they did something you can't do in the game. on our nerd shit fr. and when jack black would say his stupid little lines the whole theater said them and it was actually so awesome. im not even kidding i think the entire theater said chicken jockey. also sorry spoilers but when they said "we're mining... we're crafting... we're minecrafting!" or whatever that was my favorite scene.

something i realized tonight though was that my life is genuinely full of so much joy and love, and i really just kind of ignore it a lot. i hardly ever make plans to see friends, i never try new things, i never get out of my comfort zone... but i feel like i kind of did that tonight? ish? and i'm really glad i did. i complain alot about how monotonous my life has been getting (even though i LOVE my routine, it gets old) but i never really do anything about it.

"but how ever will you accomplish this in your day to day life?" asks my millions of devoted fans. and my answer is i watched eddy burback's video about getting rid of his phone and i think that'll solve all my problems i guess. i've already kind of distanced myself from my phone, i mostly just use my computer if i need to go online for anything, but i don't really use it anymore for the most part. and honestly i feel way better than i used to. i'm atleast a few months clean on posting to my snap story. i think this summer i might try using one of those tacky flip phones they have at dollar stores for a while and see how it goes. also obviously i know getting rid of my smartphone won't fix my life, but i feel like its such a big factor in why i feel like my life is boring.

ok consider this next bit my little manifesto for this summer (hopefully putting this online will motivate me to actually do this...) : i'm going to stop using my phone so often and find alternatives to stuff, like bringing my digicam around instead of my phone to take pictures. i'm gonna try to make plans at least once a week, and leave the house at least once a day. i'm gonna try to be outside as often as i can, because every winter i get upset i didn't enjoy the nice weather while it lasted. i'm gonna try to read atleast a few books, nothing crazy i just need to start reading more. maybe write an essay or something every now and then. i also want to start posting some of my essays on here maybe? maybe not i dunno yet.

in other news i think i'm gonna make a little blog schedule. i'm thinking sundays or like wednesday maybe. but then i'm afraid it'll feel like a chore. like "oh i forgot i have a blog post due today..." or something and i just want to make sure it stays fun. so maybe i'll just keep posting like, 3 days in a row and then forget for like a week. who knows...

breaking news: local teen hangs out with his friend and realizes his life doesn't suck. whatever. steve and garrett are inlove i saw it with my own two eyes. byebye have a nice rest of your weekend!!!

04/11/25 (Friday)
locking in and acting normal + chill

hello!!! i have that one pitbull video stuck in my head. life is not a waste of time and time is not a waste of life so lets stop wasting time get wasted and have the time of our lives. and then the guy in the background goes "hell yeah pitbull!" i love that video. ok onto the serious business at hand...

I'm going genuinely insane. this happens around this time every year, like right before summer. as soon as it starts getting nice outside I go rabid with wanting to change my entire life. ok that might be a bit of an overstatement. usually I'll make a new playlist, get some new clothes maybe, rearrange my room, change my phone wallpaper or something... that kind of stuff. but I fear this may be The Big One. I might get a crazy haircut who knows I'm out of control. I want to start talking to more people and meet new friends and have fun I guess??? not that I don't always feel like that, I just think about it a lot more around this time. it'll probably wear off by the time school starts next year.

speaking of school... I'm pretty sure I've probably mentioned being homeschooled like atleast 76 different times on here, but I'm really starting to hate it. I mean I don't hate actual homeschooling, I just hate being lonely. but next year I think I'll be doing the homeschooling program that my school district offers, where you go in-person for electives and do the regular junk like math and science online. it sounds pretty nice, because one major reason I went homeschooled in the first place was because every single class I had, it was impossible to focus. I wish I was kidding, but my grade is known to be the worst. teachers fear us LOL. not me though I'm chill... but the ones that contribute to that reputation make class unbearable. I seriously could NOT get shit done. but I think it would totally help if I could do that stuff at home or in a more controlled environment rather than in the noisiest room possible. it would be nice to be learning the same stuff as everyone else too, it sucks having to ask "so ummm what are you guys learning in math rn..." also I really miss electives. I went homeschooled at the end of the 1st semester, and I was supposed to be a TA for a computer class or something idk. but it was with my favorite teacher and I'm so sad. she literally lets her TAs be on their phone the whole time too... ugh what the cuss.

ok on to everybodys favorite segment... life updates woo! I went to the library with a friend yesterday and it was rad. I tried playing papas cheeseria but it wouldn't load so I just worked on my new about me page (which is almost done I think???). I have a friend that works at the library and she's into making zines and stuff so she made a little zine library and it's the cutest. and she's having a zine-making like... class I guess? I dunno but it sounds fun and I'm going. very excited. we also ran into some of my other friends who were there studying because they're taking exams right now.

I think tomorrow I'm gonna get some posters printed because I can never have enough posters, and thennn maybe go to the mall? who knows. I'm also getting a corkboard FINALLY I've been wanting one forever they're so fun. very busy week indeed... also I get my sublime record back on monday yay! I guess the record is completely fine and my player is just a piece of shit LOL. what the heck.

ok that is all have a nice weekend bye!!!!!!!!!!!

04/18/25 (Friday)
truly in my zone

HELLO ALL.... today is awesome. I slept in but that was chill cause it's good friday so no school. how convenient! every friday me and my mom go to our local coffee place thing so we did that. I meant to try something other than my regular order but I forgor. next time for sure... (i've been saying that for 2 months) anyway i think i've written about them on here before, but for christmas last year my friend got me those silly socks that have magnets and hold hands. and i wore those today with my jorts and mellon collie shirt. and of course my beloved green converse!!!!!!! they're my favorite shoes ever probably. thennn we got home and watched awkward, and I'm SO pissed off at this show. we're on s3 ep 13 or something like that. i cannot stand how stupid jenna is truly. anyways that brings me to: i kind of might want to start doing daily blog posts and then they'll be shorter. but i also really don't want to do that. cause yeah its like "wow a blog entry every day! that'll be interesting to look back on for memories!" but like. i already journal every day for that exact reason, so it's totally overkill to do that on here too. ok whatever onto the stuff

I've been under the impression that my switch wouldn't connect to my tv cause it's roku for MONTHS. but literally all I had to do was hook it up to the tv AND the charger. I'm such a technology wiz guys trust. anyways now i can play animal crossing on my tv! and fortnite and stardew valley and mariokart and this is going to be detrimental to my sleep schedule oh god. so yeah thats my plans for tonight! animal crossing on tha tv, smashing pumpkins siamese dream on tha cd player, string lights ACTIVATED, gaming mode ACTIVATED, jorts ON, fun snack and beverage IN HAND, etc etc. this is so peak. before that though I'm gonna sew myself another domo keychain. yesterday(? maybe it was wednesday) i made a regular domo keychain but now I'm making a zombie one cause he's so cute I love him.

i'm super excited cause tomorrow my friend (who I haven't seen in foreverrrrr) is coming over and we're redecorating my room!!! since last time i posted, i went to the mall and got a few posters for my room. i also got some fun prints from walgreens. i've said this before but i'm truly sorry to whatever minimum wage walgreens employee had to print out my house md poster. you deserve financial compensation. ok anyways! i also went to hobby lobby and got not only a corkboard, but also a whiteboard!!! they're so fun i already put stuff on em even though they aren't even on my wall yet. gotta enlist my dad to do that later today maybe. family bonding activity: do me a favor! just kidding i love my family and stuff

ok I might totally regret saying anything about this but i think i MIGHT be starting a really cool and awesome project soon. not sure if I'll plug it anywhere but stay tuned for sure in case i do..... i also really want to re-design my website which will probably take forever so the aforementioned awesome project definitely won't be done for a HOT minute. lmk if ur interested in hearing about my ideas for the site cause i'd lovee to share, i think its gonna be so awesome when it's done!

ok that is all for now..... goodbye have a splendid weekend and easter!!!!! eat lots of raw eggs!!!!!!!!!

05/05/25 (Monday)
cha cha cha changes

helloooooo hiiiii heyyyy!!!!!!!! i genuinely forgor about this for a minute. how terrifying. happy cinco de mayo!!!!!!!!!!!

last week i came to the most spooky realization. I've become the person I always dreamed about being when I was little. what thw fuck. the thing that really made me notice how much I've changed recently was when I started learning for fun. just doing extra school shit cause I was bored and I wanted to. what?????????? and yeah sorry i know i mention being homeschooled in every single blog post BUT i think it's genuinely made me a better person???? all I needed was a single semester to myself and all of a sudden I'm completely different. like out of nowhere I decided to finally learn how to code because it's something I've always wanted to do. I get up at 6 every day and have breakfast just cause I feel like it. not to mention I'm finally medicated, and that's definitely helped me not have heart attacks when I go in public. i'm just so mcuh more confident in myself and it's rad.

ok onto life updates woo. I hung out with my friend last-last friday and that was cool, had lots of funnnn. we got one of those toy dentist thingies from the dollar store and fucked it up majorly. poor guy lost all his teeth when he bit the curb... then on saturday there was a zine workshop thingy at the library so i had to go. my friend was gonna come with but he got sick :( so i did the unthinkable... i went in public. by myself. for the first time. and the crowd goes wild!!!! anyway i was the only one who showed up to the zine thing. which suckss but it was run by my friend so we just hung out and made stuff. she even helped me print out a cool zine i found online! after that i went with my parents to walmart to get my dad's diabetic dog's insulin. very fun. while we were there i somehow convinced my mom to let me get two plants. i got a small succulent named marilyn and i got her a star shaped pot, and i got a hanging plant (i forgor what kind) and his name is walt. he wasn't lookin too hot when i brought him home (his leaves were all dry and cracking), so we stuck him near a window and made sure to keep him hydrated and he's looking much better now, so i'll be able to move him into my room finally! but i have to get him a pot because the one i have is too small. this weekend i got two more plants for some reason??? because my parents got a ton of plants for our front yard so they let me get some. i got another succulent named neil patrick harris and an unnamed money tree. not sure what to name her. shes a butch lesbian i've decided. oh and today me and my mom were just doing whatever and ended up at hobby lobby and i got clay!!!!!! and some blind bags. i got spiderman, snoopy, and minecraft keychains yippee!!

srry i realize thats a huge ass paragraph but i'm not gonna go back and fix it cause i have guitar lessons soon and i wanna post this cause i'm busy later. erm not much else to talk about just doing really freaking awesome and cool stuff and having fun and whatever. go watch the media of the whenever because its rreally cool i love izzzyzzz ok bye

05/27/25 (Tuesday)
swamped

hi!!! life is awesome and cool. ITS SUMMERRRRR and i've had so much stuff going on recently!!!

ok last weekend i went to my grandparents house (they have a place at the lake so we go down there in the summer and swim and fish and stuff) while my mom had a garage sale at our house. the ride down to their place was torture. i mean not really, but my dad had to make a makeshift cage thing in the car to keep our 2 big dogs from climbing in the front seat while he was driving... my dog has been known to do that haha. she also jumped out of the window while we were driving one time too. luckily we weren't going too fast and we were on a gravel road so there weren't any other cars but um. she isn't the brightest.

ok anyways i was at my grandparents last weekend and for whatever reason my baby cousin? nephew? idrk how we're related but his parents had to drop him off (my grandparents babysit him alot when his parents can't) and by the end of the weekend i got 20 bucks for babysitting him!!! literally all i did was play with him and watch bluey but i wasn't gonna pass up 20 bucks. especially because i'm saving up for a new record player since mine is a piece of junk.

ok so last summer my uncle lent me his old skateboard to mess around with before i made my parents get me one and i had a blast with it. so i decided to ask for my own this summer!!!!! and once we got back, my mom said she made enough in the garage sale so that i could get one!!!! yippee!!!!!! i'm so excited!!!!! i also thought it could be cool to ride that to school next year haha.

we went back to the lake memorial weekend but it was raining so we just sat inside the whole time. it was SO boring i'm not sure why we even went. sobs. anyway now i'm typing this waiting to head to an eye doctor apt. did you know i'm legally blind in one eye? i didn't! the doctor didn't tell me whcih is fine i don't even care haha. smiles.

anywya after that i'm gonna get coffee and meet up with my friends, one of which i haven't seen since like... december????? so i'm super excited!!!! and i think we're going to a skateshop sometime this week too, possibly tomorrow??? not sure if i'll even be able to skate though since it's been pretty rainy this week :( but who knows!!!!

wow this was a lot shorter than i thought it would be. ok bye have a lovely day and have fun!!!!!!!!!

05/30/25 (Friday)
gay zombie professors

HELLO i've been working on a little project and i want to share at least SOMETHING about it because it's been eating at my brain (haha get it) and i need to talk about it!!!!!! so here's my little ritual for when i work on it hehe

ok for context, it's about two professors and one of them gets turned into a zombie. that's all you need to know for now you nosey little freak.... just kdiding sorry that was mean. ok. first off it's gotta be dark out because oooh spooky amiright. then i turn my little ikea work light on and tape a blue sticky note over it cause it looks cool. on the puter you ask? my 5 million notion pages and a pinterest board. i also have a zodiac candle that's for capricorns but nobody in my house is a capricorn so i don't know why i have it. my mom bought it a few years ago and asked if i wanted it. why did she buy a capricorn candle. anyways i also like listening to the magnus archives cause it's all spooky. i feel like i should probably be paying more attention to it rather than using it as fun spooky background noise but oh well. oh also i have like 27 million different weird lamps in my room so of course those are turned on. overhead light OFF though. all my homies hate the overhead light. overhead light lovers get out i'm filing a restraining order against you.

ok i GUESS that's all. i don't wanna share too much about my silly little guys cause i actually haven't been working on their story for very long so i might change some stuff in the future but uhhh. unfortunately i'm obsessed with blorbo from my head and i had to share or i'd probably implode. once everything is ready though i'll definitely link it. ermm keep an eye out for that perhaps... i love being annoying and mysterious to the 3 entire people who even read this. if yr reading this i love you veyr much and i hope you have a splendid weekend. byebyeeee

06/07/25 (Friday)
perfect day in geography land (ft snoopy)

HIIII yesterday was the best day ever i’m so excited to share……

ok so on Wednesday my mom asks me out of nowhere if I wanted to go to worlds of fun, which if you aren’t from Missouri UGHHH it’s a geography based theme park. like they have east asia and egypt and MERCA and a separate area called the wild west which is my personal favorite its so fun. I don't think the wild west has any roller coasters, but it has a train ride where they stop for a bit and there's a little show type thing with cowboys and its very fun. they also have wanted posters all around and its got some of the actors faces on them which is quite silly. and a few characters running for mayor so they’ve got campaign posters up ahhhh there's one lady who was running for mayor was so gorgeous her outfit was awesome.

ok also I seriously love going to worlds of fun because why are the coolest people ever always there. like not just the actors because they’re awesome, but theres always so many cool emo (for lack of a better word) peeps and I love it.

oh yeah so my mom said “hey do you wanna go to worlds of fun on Friday” and she said to ask TWO friends to come. which is crazy…. usually my dad comes with, and i’ll bring one friend just because all of the rides are 2/4 seaters, but my dad was working. so I asked 2 of my bestest friends everrr and after a few excruciating days of “ohh idkkkk I have to ask my parents…. my dad won’t text me back ohhh….” they both said they could go!!!!!!!

so at 10am (which is NOT that early, despite their complaints) we picked my friends up and went to the dollar store to get snacks!!! everyone got soda, but somehow I was the only one complaining about a stomach ache after the first roller coaster. seriously how were they not about to throw up.

ohhh also one of my friends was SO scared of roller coasters. he’d only ever been on one and hated it. but somehow we convinced him to go on the 2 most insane huge rides not once. not twice. THREE times each. also the lines were like non existent??? they knew we were coming fs…..

anyways the 2 crazy rides we got him to do were the patriot and the mamba……. the patriot has your legs dangling ooh and you go upside down like 4 times I think??? its so fun. and the mamba is literally just a cartoon ass roller coaster. you go up this huge hill for like 2 entire minutes and then u drop and its awesome. it also has these little hills at the end but you’re going so fast so everybody was like flying out of their seats….. its so fun though those 2 are my favorite for sure.

also I wore a shirt that said “i heart eating microplastics” (because i love that everyone at worlds of fun always wears the weirdest shit ever) and some kid told me they liked my shirt in line. highlight of the day. and their mom said “whats his shirt say” and the kid told her and it was so funny. ALSO ALSO despite the fact that I went on probably at least 10 different roller coasters, my hair looked incredible by the time I got home. like it looked like I styled it and shit even though I never style it anymore. like… you get it it looked good.

alsoooooo they have a little kiddy area called planet snoopy for some reason??? so of course in the gift shop there was a ton of snoopy stuff… did you know I'm fucking deranged about snoopy. I got a keychain. I love him.

ALLLSOOOOO we did the bumper cars like at least 6 times it was so fun. I got random kids to help me gang up on my friend and he got SO mad it was hilarious. there was a 4 car pile up. I got in many wrecks… another highlight was probably going on some of the kiddy rides and screaming and talking about how that was definitely worse than the mamba… ohhh the patriot hates to see zero gravity coming….

also of course I brought my stupid little camera because I HAD to document the best day ever. all of them have our faces in them though and i don't really wanna put that on here lol. i have a fear that i'll put my face on this site and someone will recognize me and know that i'm a little freak (derogatory).

oh yeah then I got home and drank like a gallon of pickle juice and passed out. I'm so sunburned due to the redhead of it all and my legs hurt SO bad from walking all day but its soooo worth it

OK BYEEE have a FANTASTIC and RADICAL and AWESOME weekend !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if you learn anything from my tale…. don’t forget sunscreen if its hot out please I beg. it hurts to shower

06/17/25 (Tuesday)
gay zombie professors pt.2

good morning everypony. it's currently 1:13 and i think i'm insane. yk that one picture of piss sonic that says never trust how you feel about your life after 9pm. i need to print that out and put it on my wall for reals.

so to distract myself from that i'm gonna talk about my ocs because i literally do not gaf if people steal my ideas anymore. did u know thats why i didn't want 2 share about them LOL. like u are not shakespeare chill nobody cares that much man. i also wanted to make some sort of media about them (i originally wanted to make an """""arg""""" type thing and code an oc's personal site etc etc... i might still do that, but i've got other ideas for these fellers...) and i didn't want to spoil it just in case lololol. but it is literally not that serious.

ok here's the tea............. i was originally wanting to make a sherlock holmes adaptation, which i guess you could see if you squinted, but it's not really noticable. like my watson wanted to be an author + has a blog, but that's about it. oh also i based their names off of sherlock and watson.

ok so i have yet to go to college. so naturally my ocs are professors. ohhh my goddddd ughhhhhh i cannot write about teenagers sorry. BOOOOOORINGGGGGG. anyways yeah thats my excuse if anything makes zero sense (in which case PLEASE let me know). so scott (sherlock) is a biology professor + matt (watson) is a philosophy professor. the elevator pitch is basically that somehow scott turns matt into a zombie with whatevr bullshit he was cookin up in his lab and he tries to help matt appear human enough to keep his job at the university they work for. i'm not sure if i want matt to be killed + revived via zombie juice, or if he's turned while alive??? who knows. the 1st could be interesting. it would bring a more frankenstein vibe and thats cool.

so naturally as they are MY ocs, they are very very gay. in like a good omens way. everyone knows they're together except them. sorry but how is it not gay when yr homie is performing surgery on you without anesthesia because you're a fucking zombie and he isn't sure if you'd even wake back up, but you have to be quiet because he lives in an apartment complex and oh yeah he wants you to stay the night at his place because he wants to make sure you recover okay. UGH. i hate it here.

lets talk about allegories and themes why not. idek if these classify as allegories or metaphors or???? anyways. a big thing about scott is he fucking hates his life a bunch and he's high-key living on auto pilot. ohhh how romantic, matt makes him enjoy his life. BAM queer allegory because he makes scott feel like he can be himself. we'll ignore how scott pushes him away because he's scared of that. but he can't literally push him away because he's gotta make sure he doesn't fucking die.

i think the theme of their story is kind of i saw the tv glow - esque. matt helps scott realize there's more to life (cough queerness cough not conforming cough) and his being a zombie makes scott question everything he's been taught his entire life. yknow cause biology is kind of his thing. and like, he's been taught dead things don't fucking talk and whatnot. are you seeing the allegory here????? i'm really stuggling to word this LOL.

i also thought it could be fun to have some vampire-ish imagery for scott because i really love monsters and i've been obsessed with vampires recently and it happened to work into his character pretty nicely. vampires tend to represent societal deviance, and with scott's whole arc of like "hey wait there's more to life" i thought it was pretty fitting. he also tends to live sort of vicariously through matt (at least before he gets turned into a zombie) and that kind of fits with vampires feeding off of others life forces??? idk not really because it isn't really harming anyone except scott.

i'm so sorry i'm positive half of that either made zero sense or sounded incredibly stupid but i want to yap about these creatures because they're all i think about ever. also reading back through that, i realized i cussed quite a bit and i'm terribly sorry for that as well. if u read all of that then congrats have a splendid tuesday. GOODBYE

06/26/25 (Thursday)
first we mine. then we craft.

helloooooo!!! big day today... i got up before 10am for the first time in maybe 4 weeks. i got up at 8!!! i was even about to go back to sleep but the sloth has not won this time...

this weekend is my friend's birthday everybody say happy birthday jazmin!!!!!!!! actually this weekend is just her party her birthday is the 2nd but still.

okkkkkkk all i've done since like saturday is play minecraft. me & my friend started a new creative world (it was originally survival but we died like 5 times each before the first day even ended) and started building this awesome like village thing in a huge cave underground. i made some townhouses and there was an aquarium and an ice skating rink and a restaurant inside a big cave spike and so much other stuff omg. goated. then on sunday(?) we made another world and started building a beach town for a bit. but she had to leave so i made my own world and oh my. i've been building a HUGE village every day since then. I started with a house which took like zero time but it was already a long day of mining and crafting so i went to bed. but then i made a big market which took like the entire next day. and since then i've been building an area with a ton of businesses. so far i have a bakery, a potion shop, and an armory. I also plan on making a beekeeper house near the business area, a big area of just houses, and maybe a few houses off by the beach. the entire map is mostly plains forever and it's perfect for building in every spot so this is definitely gonna be a long term project hehe. i'm very excited to add onto it!!!

ohhhh also last wednesday was the best day ever probably. i got to see a friend that i haven't seen since likeeee early december?? and we went to the thrift store. then we went to the library and my buddy ol pal printed some zines for me (thank you emily!!!!!!!!!!!!) and then there was a little club type thing going on (they have mario kart, smash bros, minecraft??, board games, cards, etc etc) so obviously we had to stay for that. who knew go fish could get so heated??? overall 10/10 day very fun.

in other smaller news: i'm learning blender and craving donuts. i got a haircut yesterday and now i have some little x's shaved into my head for some reason. i did not ask for this but it looks rad so i don't really care. also i convinced myself i was gonna participate in art fight but i forgot about my inability to draw people so. that is fun. if anyone wants to draw my ocs for free though hmu... jk. ........unless? speaking of my ocs. i really want to make an animated show for them. which of course is entirely out of my skillset. ts NOT happening bro. also i probably won't make another blog post before the end of the month (4 entire days) so i want everyone to mourn. this month my spiderverse calendar was spot. my husband. my beloved. and i didn't check who next month is but i know it isn't spot sooooo who cares. i'll miss having a large photo of my husband on my wall at all times... also i want to confirm for sure that i AM working on the big cool update thing i vague posted about a couple days ago. for once i am not procrastinating...

alsoooooooo last thing: i haven't linked it or anything yet because it isn't TECHNICALLY done, but i do have a zine site hehe. and that is the aforementioned zine my friend printed!!! i'm making monthly magazine-style zines. if u wanna check it out... click my link ooooh... and yeah sorry the zine library is literally recolored houdini mag i do plan on changing it but alas. i am so busy...

okay have a wonderful splendid AND fantastic thursday. never let anyone dull your sparkle. that's what i always say. goodbye i love you