oh god. greetings and salutations. i'm gonna throw up hold onBLAEEAEGHHHBSAKFB$WIQBC
school starts on monday/tuesday for me and i'm actually gonna do something illegal or maybe mildly looked down upon. other than that this month has been so awesome i've had a lot of fun with friends. this summer was. WAS............. sob. this summer was awesome. i'm proud of myself for how much i've grown and got out of my comfort zone recently. ok onto the scary stuff
idk why i'm so insecure about this (i've gone out of my way to make sure i didn't mention it anywhere on here LOL) but i'm starting high school... GULP fetus alert!!! itty bitty little toddler!!! i'm teething actually it's a big issue. but ya thats why school starts monday/tuesday, cause monday is where we (the little baby munchkins) tour the high school. SPEAKING of highschool i got a monster high doll from walmart today for zero reason at all i just wanted one. i got the sweet 1600 cupid cause she's my favorite character. she's chillaxing on my desk now and she's so pretty!!!
i also have been putting off back to school shopping even though i'm in desperate need of new clothes so i'm doing it today/tomorrow. surely no problems will come from this... my friend did her shopping like 3 weeks ago i'm so embarrassed.
also idk if i mentioned or not??? my guitar teacher dude moved locations so i didn't have lessons for a few months but i went back yesterday and it was rad. i'm learning police truck by dead kennedys it's quite fun to play! i also got back into skating on a regular basis recently and it is ALSO very fun i'm just having so much fun all the time... muahaha
ok as much as i am nervous about starting high school, i don't have the same queer-specific fear as i usually do. huzzah, my mom told the school to call me by my real name! finally! after i had to relentlessly explain to her for 4 years that i'm not brainwashed! yayyyy! god this sucks brah. i am excited though honestly. i have classes with friends and i'm bringing my ipod because phones are banned in my district now. all cause SOMEBODY couldn't quit playing brawl stars during 8am history class. ok definitely more of a widespread thing it wasn't just that one guy but he still pmo.
ok how embarrassing i haven't posted for a month and i genuinely don't remember anything that's happened ever. i've been playing roblox a lot and coding and that's kind of it. i dunno man.
ok bye i love you go have fun with the rest of your summer if you still have it. sigh
hellooooo hiiiiiii!!! i realized i have been seriously neglecting my poor website for uhhh. checks watch. a very long time. in my mind at least. i think it's really only been a few weeks, but compared to my near daily updates, that was a big switch up. anyways yeah i didn't die i've just been thoroughly enjoying my summer!!!
this isn't gonna be like a really thoughtful blog post (not that i ever post like that anyway), just a little dump of everything that's been going on recently!
ok for starters i FINALLY got my new prescription for my glasses and it's rad. my mom said she paid extra for them to make the lenses a bit thinner because my first prescription was already so thick it popped out of the frame.... and it's about the same thickness. i'd hate to see what it looks like without being thinned down. it'd probably poke me in the eye.
also my mom and i started watching love island. i'm obsessed with chelley she's literally my wife. we're only on like episode 4 though because ohhh we're so busyyy and they're like an hour long each so. no spoilers or whatever.
ermmm i've also been playing roblox!!! my friend and i are obsessed with bloxburg and we like building our houses on call and chatting. very fun. i recently finished a backyard for my most recent house and it's very cute. i'm going for a late 90s - early 2000s suburbian home and it's looking great. maybe i'll post a few pictures once it's done??? also as a bloxburg og i'm obsessed w the new map... not a big fan of the phone ui tbh. i just recently got back into roblox after not playing for literally 3 years so the amount of changes to my favorite games gave me whiplash. and yes i'm addicted to grow a garden. my friends gave me some really expensive fruits and got me hooked. i'm seriously so mad at them!!!!!
and yayyyyy all my friends are back in town!!!!! everyone was so busy for like 2 weeks because of 4th of july for some reason. the fair is also in town this week and of course i'm going later today. my family is also going to dinner with some friends this thursday and we're going to the fair afterwards. can't waitttt!!!!
this isn't a very cool update, but my guitar teacher's cat buddy died a few weeks ago. i only saw him maybe a few minutes every monday, and he wasn't too fond of my playing, but i miss him a bunch. he's the sweetest cat i've ever met. we had some interesting conversations, he was quite talkative. he liked laying in people's guitar cases during lessons and i can confirm. he got really upset when i tried to get him out of it LOL.
i also wanna share something cool i started doing to get myself busy!!! due to my bloxburg addiction, i've been on my computer a lot. and i have a growing list of things i need to do. so i put a sticky note on my computer and i have to do something off of the list before i can go gamer mode. one of them is like, read a chapter of a book. go skate for a bit. finish the lego set i started in december... which i did btw. it looks rad. it's the fender set and it came w a sticker. i put it on my guitar hehe.
alsoooo the monthly zine for calzine is gonna be a few days late SORRY. i've been quite the naturepilled summermaxxer recently and also i forgor. ALSO ALSO i know my splash page still says happy pride and it is now the 15th. i do not care and i'm considering leaving it up permanently now. ALSO x3 i have not worked on my awesome cool website update in the slightest because i lowkey have not been on neocities at ALL recently. sorry about that!! i know everyone was on the edge of their seats to see it... idk maybe i'll do a cool redesign, but my original idea was kinda dumb and i'm over it now LOL.
ok that's all. i'm positive a lot more has happened recently but tbh i don't remember. ok BYE i need to go get ready for the fair YAYYYYAYAYAY i love you have an exsquisite day. go outside and eat icecream without phone maybe if it's warm where you are. it's very nice
helloooooo!!! big day today... i got up before 10am for the first time in maybe 4 weeks. i got up at 8!!! i was even about to go back to sleep but the sloth has not won this time...
this weekend is my friend's birthday everybody say happy birthday jazmin!!!!!!!! actually this weekend is just her party her birthday is the 2nd but still.
okkkkkkk all i've done since like saturday is play minecraft. me & my friend started a new creative world (it was originally survival but we died like 5 times each before the first day even ended) and started building this awesome like village thing in a huge cave underground. i made some townhouses and there was an aquarium and an ice skating rink and a restaurant inside a big cave spike and so much other stuff omg. goated. then on sunday(?) we made another world and started building a beach town for a bit. but she had to leave so i made my own world and oh my. i've been building a HUGE village every day since then. I started with a house which took like zero time but it was already a long day of mining and crafting so i went to bed. but then i made a big market which took like the entire next day. and since then i've been building an area with a ton of businesses. so far i have a bakery, a potion shop, and an armory. I also plan on making a beekeeper house near the business area, a big area of just houses, and maybe a few houses off by the beach. the entire map is mostly plains forever and it's perfect for building in every spot so this is definitely gonna be a long term project hehe. i'm very excited to add onto it!!!
ohhhh also last wednesday was the best day ever probably. i got to see a friend that i haven't seen since likeeee early december?? and we went to the thrift store. then we went to the library and my buddy ol pal printed some zines for me (thank you emily!!!!!!!!!!!!) and then there was a little club type thing going on (they have mario kart, smash bros, minecraft??, board games, cards, etc etc) so obviously we had to stay for that. who knew go fish could get so heated??? overall 10/10 day very fun.
in other smaller news: i'm learning blender and craving donuts. i got a haircut yesterday and now i have some little x's shaved into my head for some reason. i did not ask for this but it looks rad so i don't really care. also i convinced myself i was gonna participate in art fight but i forgot about my inability to draw people so. that is fun. if anyone wants to draw my ocs for free though hmu... jk. ........unless? speaking of my ocs. i really want to make an animated show for them. which of course is entirely out of my skillset. ts NOT happening bro. also i probably won't make another blog post before the end of the month (4 entire days) so i want everyone to mourn. this month my spiderverse calendar was spot. my husband. my beloved. and i didn't check who next month is but i know it isn't spot sooooo who cares. i'll miss having a large photo of my husband on my wall at all times... also i want to confirm for sure that i AM working on the big cool update thing i vague posted about a couple days ago. for once i am not procrastinating...
alsoooooooo last thing: i haven't linked it or anything yet because it isn't TECHNICALLY done, but i do have a zine site hehe. and that is the aforementioned zine my friend printed!!! i'm making monthly magazine-style zines. if u wanna check it out... click my link ooooh... and yeah sorry the zine library is literally recolored houdini mag i do plan on changing it but alas. i am so busy...
okay have a wonderful splendid AND fantastic thursday. never let anyone dull your sparkle. that's what i always say. goodbye i love you
good morning everypony. it's currently 1:13 and i think i'm insane. yk that one picture of piss sonic that says never trust how you feel about your life after 9pm. i need to print that out and put it on my wall for reals.
so to distract myself from that i'm gonna talk about my ocs because i literally do not gaf if people steal my ideas anymore. did u know thats why i didn't want 2 share about them LOL. like u are not shakespeare chill nobody cares that much man. i also wanted to make some sort of media about them (i originally wanted to make an """""arg""""" type thing and code an oc's personal site etc etc... i might still do that, but i've got other ideas for these fellers...) and i didn't want to spoil it just in case lololol. but it is literally not that serious.
ok here's the tea............. i was originally wanting to make a sherlock holmes adaptation, which i guess you could see if you squinted, but it's not really noticable. like my watson wanted to be an author + has a blog, but that's about it. oh also i based their names off of sherlock and watson.
ok so i have yet to go to college. so naturally my ocs are professors. ohhh my goddddd ughhhhhh i cannot write about teenagers sorry. BOOOOOORINGGGGGG. anyways yeah thats my excuse if anything makes zero sense (in which case PLEASE let me know). so scott (sherlock) is a biology professor + matt (watson) is a philosophy professor. the elevator pitch is basically that somehow scott turns matt into a zombie with whatevr bullshit he was cookin up in his lab and he tries to help matt appear human enough to keep his job at the university they work for. i'm not sure if i want matt to be killed + revived via zombie juice, or if he's turned while alive??? who knows. the 1st could be interesting. it would bring a more frankenstein vibe and thats cool.
so naturally as they are MY ocs, they are very very gay. in like a good omens way. everyone knows they're together except them. sorry but how is it not gay when yr homie is performing surgery on you without anesthesia because you're a fucking zombie and he isn't sure if you'd even wake back up, but you have to be quiet because he lives in an apartment complex and oh yeah he wants you to stay the night at his place because he wants to make sure you recover okay. UGH. i hate it here.
lets talk about allegories and themes why not. idek if these classify as allegories or metaphors or???? anyways. a big thing about scott is he fucking hates his life a bunch and he's high-key living on auto pilot. ohhh how romantic, matt makes him enjoy his life. BAM queer allegory because he makes scott feel like he can be himself. we'll ignore how scott pushes him away because he's scared of that. but he can't literally push him away because he's gotta make sure he doesn't fucking die.
i think the theme of their story is kind of i saw the tv glow - esque. matt helps scott realize there's more to life (cough queerness cough not conforming cough) and his being a zombie makes scott question everything he's been taught his entire life. yknow cause biology is kind of his thing. and like, he's been taught dead things don't fucking talk and whatnot. are you seeing the allegory here????? i'm really stuggling to word this LOL.
i also thought it could be fun to have some vampire-ish imagery for scott because i really love monsters and i've been obsessed with vampires recently and it happened to work into his character pretty nicely. vampires tend to represent societal deviance, and with scott's whole arc of like "hey wait there's more to life" i thought it was pretty fitting. he also tends to live sort of vicariously through matt (at least before he gets turned into a zombie) and that kind of fits with vampires feeding off of others life forces??? idk not really because it isn't really harming anyone except scott.
i'm so sorry i'm positive half of that either made zero sense or sounded incredibly stupid but i want to yap about these creatures because they're all i think about ever. also reading back through that, i realized i cussed quite a bit and i'm terribly sorry for that as well. if u read all of that then congrats have a splendid tuesday. GOODBYE
HIIII yesterday was the best day ever i’m so excited to share……
ok so on Wednesday my mom asks me out of nowhere if I wanted to go to worlds of fun, which if you aren’t from Missouri UGHHH it’s a geography based theme park. like they have east asia and egypt and MERCA and a separate area called the wild west which is my personal favorite its so fun. I don't think the wild west has any roller coasters, but it has a train ride where they stop for a bit and there's a little show type thing with cowboys and its very fun. they also have wanted posters all around and its got some of the actors faces on them which is quite silly. and a few characters running for mayor so they’ve got campaign posters up ahhhh there's one lady who was running for mayor was so gorgeous her outfit was awesome.
ok also I seriously love going to worlds of fun because why are the coolest people ever always there. like not just the actors because they’re awesome, but theres always so many cool emo (for lack of a better word) peeps and I love it.
oh yeah so my mom said “hey do you wanna go to worlds of fun on Friday” and she said to ask TWO friends to come. which is crazy…. usually my dad comes with, and i’ll bring one friend just because all of the rides are 2/4 seaters, but my dad was working. so I asked 2 of my bestest friends everrr and after a few excruciating days of “ohh idkkkk I have to ask my parents…. my dad won’t text me back ohhh….” they both said they could go!!!!!!!
so at 10am (which is NOT that early, despite their complaints) we picked my friends up and went to the dollar store to get snacks!!! everyone got soda, but somehow I was the only one complaining about a stomach ache after the first roller coaster. seriously how were they not about to throw up.
ohhh also one of my friends was SO scared of roller coasters. he’d only ever been on one and hated it. but somehow we convinced him to go on the 2 most insane huge rides not once. not twice. THREE times each. also the lines were like non existent??? they knew we were coming fs…..
anyways the 2 crazy rides we got him to do were the patriot and the mamba……. the patriot has your legs dangling ooh and you go upside down like 4 times I think??? its so fun. and the mamba is literally just a cartoon ass roller coaster. you go up this huge hill for like 2 entire minutes and then u drop and its awesome. it also has these little hills at the end but you’re going so fast so everybody was like flying out of their seats….. its so fun though those 2 are my favorite for sure.
also I wore a shirt that said “i heart eating microplastics” (because i love that everyone at worlds of fun always wears the weirdest shit ever) and some kid told me they liked my shirt in line. highlight of the day. and their mom said “whats his shirt say” and the kid told her and it was so funny. ALSO ALSO despite the fact that I went on probably at least 10 different roller coasters, my hair looked incredible by the time I got home. like it looked like I styled it and shit even though I never style it anymore. like… you get it it looked good.
alsoooooo they have a little kiddy area called planet snoopy for some reason??? so of course in the gift shop there was a ton of snoopy stuff… did you know I'm fucking deranged about snoopy. I got a keychain. I love him.
ALLLSOOOOO we did the bumper cars like at least 6 times it was so fun. I got random kids to help me gang up on my friend and he got SO mad it was hilarious. there was a 4 car pile up. I got in many wrecks… another highlight was probably going on some of the kiddy rides and screaming and talking about how that was definitely worse than the mamba… ohhh the patriot hates to see zero gravity coming….
also of course I brought my stupid little camera because I HAD to document the best day ever. all of them have our faces in them though and i don't really wanna put that on here lol. i have a fear that i'll put my face on this site and someone will recognize me and know that i'm a little freak (derogatory).
oh yeah then I got home and drank like a gallon of pickle juice and passed out. I'm so sunburned due to the redhead of it all and my legs hurt SO bad from walking all day but its soooo worth it
OK BYEEE have a FANTASTIC and RADICAL and AWESOME weekend !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if you learn anything from my tale…. don’t forget sunscreen if its hot out please I beg. it hurts to shower