whattt the fuck and shit. weird couple days ummm. hello
I made cinnamon rolls for breakfast and they came with pumpkin frosting and I put them back in the oven about 4 times cause they weren't done yet and I got them out the last time and they were burnt. well ok not burnt but I'm a very picky eater and they're burnt to me. in my heart and soul...
I have guitar lessons later today and I really don't wanna go. shit home life right now and I really just don't feel like it. I've been learning the jetset life is gonna kill you by mcr and its so fun. also learning wttbp still and the solo is scaring me but we persist. also I usually practice guitar the morning I have lessons and then again after school before we leave, but I really don't think I can play cause it's so fucking cold in my house. my mom insists on keeping the windows open while its fucking 40 degrees out and she has every fan in the house on. girl there are icicles growing on me please have mercy. she keeps saying how hot it is... it's so cold I'm willingly wearing pants instead of shorts. and I love my shorts.
ok sims obsession is back. confession: i spend more time downloading shit for sims than actually playing it. confession: I've had the game for a few months I think? never once unpaused my game. all I've been doing is fucking around making characters and houses. I'm having a blast.
schools been okay. I went to another game with jazmin on friday and it was boring as hell. I talked to the guy I like for 2 entire seconds though so I GUESS it was worth it. oh my god do you remember the fucking ag art project I was working on and I left it at home the day it was due? guess what I got on it. 45/80. AN F. not because it was late, because it wasn't "symbolic" enough or some bullshit. the day the project was assigned, my friend was brainstorming and the teacher gave him an idea, and that's exactly what he made for the assignment, and he got like 25/80. THAT WAS YOUR FUCKING IDEA?!??!?!?!?!?! dpmo. everyone that chose to do an art project for that assignment got an F I'm pretty sure. anyway she graded those the last day of the quarter so I had a B- in that class. for reference, I don't do shit in my art class, like 20 missing assignments, and I have a B in there. she even said if we got below a 50 she gave us a 50 in the grade book anyways (which is a D).
oh yeah mcr album this week has been bullets. no comment it's just a great album. my favorite songs are probably our lady of sorrows and headfirst for halos. also early sunsets over monroeville obviously. I've also been listening to 3 cheers a lot. my favorite songs off there right now are the jetset life is gonna kill you and umm. honestly all of them, it's a cool album. also no I haven't listened to any other band in the slightest for at least a few weeks now, probably all month. definitely a healthy obsession, totally fine.
oh yeah I updated the blog page a little!! just swapped some pics out really but I like it a lot better. swearrrr I'm working on my art page prommyyy...
ok I think thats all??? idk not really done much recently. I wore a really cool outfit yesterday. ummm. ok have a GREAT hump day BYE
hey hello hi. it's been a cool week! I've been having fun I think
ok mcr album of the week has been black parade holy fuck the obsession has kicked in full force. I think I've listened to it all the way through maybe 8 times in the past couple days. I'm learning wttbp on guitar to pratice my bends and it's pretty fun to play! I have a very unrealistic fantasy of getting my band and choir friends to help the band cover it. how cool would that be. freaking awesome.
ok thursday I skipped school and worked on my ag project that was literally due friday and guess what. I fucking left it at home friday. I literally was freaking out thursday trying to get it done and I worked on it friday morning and I fucking forgot it!!!!! how does that even happen. teacher didn't care so I guess it's fine, I'm presenting it tomorrow. and I probably should've worked on it over the weekend because hoenstly it looks like shit but I really do not want to at all.
speaking of fridayyy.... it was very fun!!! my friend jazmin passed her permit test woohoo! but she wasn't there for our only class together, and the other kid at our table was suspended cause he pantsed someone last week so I had to sit alone like a loser. but I did get to listen to tbp so it's fine I GUESS. in home ec we started sewing our tote bags and honestly I'm not scared of sewing machines anymore that was very fun.
after school I got all comfy and shit and then jazmin texts asking me to go to the game with her!!! wonderful timing thank you. so we went to the game and it was actually really fun! it was the first game I've been to this year. I used to go to em a lot, but I had awful unmedicated anxiety and I might as well have just tortured myself so I stopped going. but it was really fun I'm glad I went! we ran to mcdonalds and got drinks, and jazmin was friends with a girl working there so we got em free! huzzah! there was a gas leak or something on this one street and it stank like shit oh my god. but we had to walk like right through it to get to mcdonalds + back to the field LOL. band and color guard did a half-time show and it was really weird but they did a good job I think. we mostly stood around cheering for our band friends and meeting up with them when they weren't doing stuff. we lost the game btw our football team sucks ass. but I'm really happy because that means I don't lose my band friends on halloween since we 100% won't make it to that game.
holy cow speaking of halloween, I'm so excited!!! I finally have plans!!! I'm hanging out with a group of friends and we're having a sleepover after. woohoo!!! I'm just getting some cheap vampire teeth for my costume, I also kinda want to do mcr-esque red eye makeup because I can never not make everything about mcr. and yeah I'll probably be really annoying about it being frank iero's birthday. I'm having fun with being a fanboy leave me alone!!! (talking to myself)
also yeah I quit weird web october after 2 days shut up!!! I tend to cycle through a handful of hobbies and right now I'm really focused on guitar, so my site is getting quite neglected... I'll probably be back to working on it in a week or so.
oh yeah yesterday I went to my grandparents house! I saw my uncle who I haven't seen in like over a year and he was way too nonchalant. he got a new dog since then so I got to meet her too, she's very cute. I helped my grandma make some little chocolate skeletons using some mold + halloween sugar cookies. not sure if I've ever mentioned that on here? my grandma and I make sugar cookies for like every occasion ever, it's a blast. they're seriously so good too, you should be very jealous. I also brought a sewing project so she could help me with it.
speaking of that particular sewing project!!! when I get back on my coding grind I plan on making a page for my arts n crafts. but more like project type stuff. bigger things. I don't wanna just put a bunch of sketches on here or anything. I like using a lot of different mediums and I really don't draw often enough for that haha. but I wanna share my process for bigger projects (like the one I'm working on now!) because I think that would be fun.
ok I think thats all. the mouse on my computer just grew to an alarming size and I don't know why and I'm kind of concerned. have a good rest of your sunday and also week. byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hihihihi. it's been an alright week! I've been playing guitar and coding and everythings rad.
EXCEPT for monday... ok so I take my meds at night, right? and I ran out, so I couldn't take them sunday night and the pharmacy's closed sundays. I've never missed a dose before, so I didn't kow how I'd react. umm needless to say it was not GOOD. I was insanely dizzy all day and I'm genuinely surprised I didn't pass out or fall over or anything.
ok but other than that nightmare, it's been a nice week. on tuesday I finished sewing my bear in home ec, he's hideous and I love him very much. my mcr album of choice this week was bullets and oughhh. foaming at the mouth. such a good album. I had guitar lessons wednesday and I'm FINALLY done learning helena. it sounds fucking awesome I love playing it. I'm thinking about making a page for guitar covers? but I'll probably wait, because I planned on making a whole page dedicated to my band when SOMEONE finally gets some fuckin drums!!! so when that's settled I'll MAYBE put some of our covers on here. I'm also gonna try to convince the band to cover + remake the im not ok mv... I think that would be so fun. I can't wait until christmas and our drummer actually gets her drumset!!! we still might need another guitarist to play lead for some stuff, but thats alright since my school is crawling with guitar-playing freaks. I've got some in mind... muahaha. our soon-to-be drummer actually plays guitar, but we don't know anyone else who plays (or WILL play) drums soooo.
ok what else. I'm thinking of redoing my blog + about me pages. not too much I want to change, I'll probably keep the layout... I might add a music player to this page cause I realized it's pretty boring reading these in total silence haha. and maybe I can do a song of the week sorta thing!
I had a nice day today, I just got home from school and skated for the first time in like a month. the most advanced thing I can do is turn right. I'm unable to turn left at this time, thanks 4 yr understanding. had therapy this morning and it wasn't actually that awful. made eye contact with my crush for about 3 entire seconds and it made my day, if you were wondering how pathetic that situation's gotten. my friend is going to see chappell roan tomorrow and I'm so insanely jealous, but she said she'd get me a shirt so I GUESS it's fine. my ag class has been completely ignoring the shitass seating chart so I've been sitting with my friends all week, it's rad. I'm finally done with exams for the quarter too! took my last one this morning and I did awesome on it.
yes the rumors are true, fanfiction got me back into reading!!! I think it's pretty stupid that reading fanfic isn't seen in the same way as reading a regular book, but I guess I get it cause most fanfics are freaky as fuck. but I'm proud of myself!!! I was reading non-stop like, all last weekend + most of this week!!! and was that because I wanted the characters in the fic to freak it? YES!!!!!!!! and did they? ABSOLUTELY!!!!! NUMEROUS TIMES!!!!! but I was reading and that's what matters shhh... also if you're curious I was reading unholyverse and anatomy of a fall on ao3... PEAK PEAK PEAK PEAK OH MY GOD. obv I don't actually ship the stuff in those fics irl, but it's fun to read-- everyone is so talented when it comes to mcr fanfic
ok I'm off to practice helena! I told my buddy to learn the bass to it so we could play sometime, quite excited!!! ok bye have a fantastic friday and weekend woo!!!!!!!!!!
i didn't have any ideas for the title sorry. haiii!!!!! crazy crazy awesome day and its only 10am. awesome week so far really!!!
i've been getting way into coding again and I'm so seriously stoked to be on the special sauce page today woo!!! I saw last night and totally freaked out. and also I was at 69 followers for about 30 minutes... ty for following though, I try not to focus on that kind of stuff too much, but its awesome that anyone even likes my site at all, let alone 70-ish people? honestly crazy to me. kind of pissed I got on special sauce when I'm RIGHT in the middle of redesigning my site though haha. not rlly rockin w the current theme like I thought I would... maybe I'll keep it in my back pocket for spring though!
ooohhh over the weekend I finally downloaded more mcr on my ipod because I've gone like 2 weeks just listening to three cheers on repeat. which honestly wasn't bad, I just felt like I was missing out. and BOY was I right. danger days is awesome I'm so obsessed. I also like black parade, I didn't realize how many songs I already knew from it. bullets is rad too. honestly, three cheers is probably still my goat though... but yeah now i'm just listening to danger days 24/7. and yes I did read the entirety of the killjoys slang tumblr page. shut up!!!!!
we got a new seating chart in my ag class yesterday and it sucks. Its my only class with the creature I like and I don't even sit near him anymore. booooo. I do sit next to my best friend though so it's FINE i guess. i've had tests all week and i've done really good on them! i think today was the last day, but i have a little quiz on friday i believe and then i'm done for real.
I hvae guitar lessons later and I FINALLY practiced!!!! I'm almost done learning helena and it's only been a week!! i've been taking way longer to learn songs cause i've been """busy""" (unmotivated cough. and also busy with school. cough) but I'm so back!!!! helena is honestly so fun to play. I watched the making of the music video finally and cannot believe frank was too short to hold the fucking coffin. honestly real
ok what else. i'm redesigning the site and making it a little less rainbow glitter puke and a little more "I would sell my liver and both kidneys to stand in the rain for 3 hours in the lawn of an mcr concert" aka making shit emo and putting mcr references everywhere. shut upp i'm having fun!!!!!! (talking to myself)
I had a dream last night that I met kalynn and weston kourry. that is all... BYE have a fantabulous day i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!
just kiddinggggg. but I did earlier. hii hello I've failed my goal of not crying at school for my whole freshman year. you'd think that would be pretty easy considering I'm only there a couple hours a day but alas.
ok so I was having a great day cause I was getting picked up early, which is awesome cause that means my usual 4-ish hrs at school was only 3!!! and I brought a bag of doritos and a cookie dough bar to lunch but it wasn't very good so i gave it to my friend. doritos were bomb as usual though. anyway went to my stupid ag class, which they should just call ffa class cause that's really all we talk about. I've learned nothing about agriculture but I can tell you all about the future farmers of america and their dress code for formal events if u want!!! anyway I sit next to some stupid kid in that class that I might have developed a crush on or something slightly resembling a crush. and I was feeling awesome so when I went to study hall I was like "man I wanna tell someone about this :) because I'm feeling good today :)" anyway told a friend and she started laughing so hard she was crying. ok. tears. awesome. then my friend that I gave the cookie dough bar to came over and said "omg whats wrong why are you crying!!!" and she said "caleb just told me who he likes" (name drop!!! cal is a nickname I tried to give myself and it didn't stick) and he said "I think I know who it is" and then just said the guys name quite loudly. so that was fun. pissed me off so I got on my illegal contraband iphone and went to listen to some emo shit on my ipod because I was trying not to cry, and whats gonna help me with that better than gerard way screaming some gay shit!!!!!!!! sorry I'm realizing how much of a stereotypical teenager I'm becoming every day. ughhhhh. anyway my ipod was dead!!! like I was listening to it on my way to study hall wdym!!! so that pissed me off even more that I had to listen to their stupid ass conversations while I was already upset. and when I'm pissed it's very obvious, I'm not good at hiding it at ALL. and nobody said anything!!!! not a word!!!!!
so then I have my stupid home ec class that I have zero friends in, and it's mostly football guys and volleyball girls. and one chick that I used to be friends with but she randomly texted me one day while I was mid-vomit to tell me she couldn't be friends with me cause I'm queer. ok! and she sits across from me. rad! anyway we did jack shit in there so I had a therapy session w the teacher. she gave some ok advice I guess. made me feel a bit better. started crying for some reason though so that was embarrassing! then I had art, but I was getting picked up at like 1:50-ish and that's around the time 8th hr starts so I was only there long enough to tell a friend what happened. wish I could've stayed to talk about it longer but now you people in my puter get to hear it. lucky you!
anyway I got to leave, which is perfect cause I can't stand the kid at my table in art. remmington when I find you. anyway I was picked up early cause my mom's friend is a hairstylist so we go to her for haircuts n all that, and we couldn't get in any other time, and she's like 30-ish mins away. I have red hair kind of, its got a lot more brown recently, but I got a few darker brown streaks and you seriously cannot even see them. like at all. but I finally got a haircut which is awesome cause it was getting pretty long. but I ended up texting my friend (cookie dough bar one) (his name is damon sorry this is all very confusing without names. hi damon if ur reading this i hope ur not but hi. if you are. hello.) that I was mad at him and he appologized and we're all good now. still very upset with the friend I told first though. but honestly whatever.
oh yeah, since my last blog post i've become a LITTLE obsessed with the sims. promise not to make fun of my mlp save file. it's so cute. my computer is running out of storage very quickly with the amount of cc and LEGALLY ACQUIRED mods i'm downloading.
oh also I did want to add that one of the things my home ec teacher said was that even if this guy does find out I like him, maybe he likes me back??? and that was a scary thought. I'm used to just not doing anything about crushes. which i've had 2 of before this. and obviously I don't plan on saying anything to him, but I'm still terrified because now people other than my mom know. and now the computer people know. but you don't know the guy so not really. also i feel like its too late to say this now but i have a suspicion that i only like him as a friend. if only I wasn't in a good mood this morning!!!!!!! now I feel like I HAVE to like him. cause otherwise I got made fun of for nothing and also I'm indecisive. oh well!
i'm doing awesome right now though. it stormed pretty hard today so that was nice. schoolwork was easy and I had like 2hrs to play sims before I had to leave for school: irl edition the squeakquel. I finished making rarity and pinkie pie's apartments!!! they're quite cute.
have I mentioned I'm unhealthily obsessed with mcr right now??? I've only really been listening to 3 cheers because I know if I listen to too many of their songs at once I'll freak majorly. I fear I'm gonna be as obsessed with them as I am with green day, and that got so bad I cried when I heard a song by them or even like. saw a picture. but that was because I saw them in concert.... last summer.... whateverrr I'm still not over it!!!!!1 I'm learning helena on guitar it's pretty fun. ray toro is a god btw in case you weren't aware. also I've been reminded I cannot sing for shit. !!!
speaking of my voice!!! my favorite topic yayayayayay!!!! my search history is once more filled with "diy hrt reddit" and "can a 14yr old get hrt" dude shut up your parents are republican they are not driving you to the next state over for hormones!!!!!!!!!!!!! that seriously isn't stopping me from trying though. seriously this situation w my parents is pmo!!!!! but I don't feel like talking about that cause it's actually gonna make me upset. anyways if anyone wants to mail me testosterone I'll give u my address for real. just kidding. unless
ok i think thats all. sorry this was kind of a bummer!!! i'm fine i think. kind of weird right now but tomorrows friday!!!!!!!!!!!! and I'm watching sinjin drowning video!!!!!!!!! i love life. okay so long and goodnight!!!!!!! i'm cringe and i'm free I love you have a good fridya and wekeknd byeebeyebeybey!!!!!!!!
HAIII do we fw more frequent blog posts? yes? awesome cause I'm doing it :P
now that I'm caught up w school, my mornings are TUBULAR. got up 8am got ready did my school work (took like 20 mins) and now I'm downloading the sims. and also it's friday. and I have like 2 hrs of free time b4 I have to go to school to hang with my friends for 3hrs. never kill yrself.
anyway I'm surprised it took me this long to download da sims, i've wanted to play it ever since I saw the insane cc community it's got. I get rlly frustrated w minecraft cause I only have it on xbox and I don't wanna buy it on my good computer (which is what I'm on now hi. I usually code on my shitty stickerbombed chromebook) and I can't get mc mods on xbox... so I buy the shitty ones on the marketplace sometimes LOL. anyways I love modding games. when I used to play mc on my crusty ipad i'd download insane mods and feel like a hacker because I knew what a file was.
oh yeah but ever since I got my good computer I've wanted to get sims on it but it cost money at the time, then it went free, but my mom didn't want me to get it cause we were originally getting this puter for homeschool which didn't happen so she dgaf now yay!!! I just use this thang to play roblox and do hw. and I had a blender phase so that's on here too.
I rlly want to make a snail shrine. a few months ago I randomly got really into bugs and snails and at one point I really wanted a pet beetle, and I asked my mom if she'd ever let me get one and she said ya. but then I realized I'm actually kind of scared of beetles and it wouldn't make any sense to get one. like I can look at em all day, I just wouldn't pick one up or anything. then I got really into getting pet snails, and for a while I was really close to getting some, but I think I got scared of the effort tbh. not that i'm THAT busy, but I'm worried I wouldn't take proper care of them and waste a bunch of money on the stuff they need only for them to end up dying. plus the eggs. yuck. anyway I'm still obsessed with snails and I need somewhere to talk about snails. so I think my first shrine will be a snail shrine hehe.
OK SIMS IS DOWNLOADED bye I'm going to go crazy downloading shit from pinterest now love you have a GREAT FRIDAY AND WEEKEND
this is genuinely one of the only things i know about this dude other than he was a piece of shit
anyway I guess I'll talk about my day sighh. I finished all my school work so I'm finally caught up! I had guitar lessons todayy. glad I'll finally have time to practice again!!! my friend and i drew something wretched on the whiteboard in one of our classes and some freak erased it the next hour (i heard her say the n word and she is cock of the casian variety) and my friend was there for art today!! she was sick yesterday and I was devastated. for art I drew a fucked up bart simpson heh... just a look into my twisted mind... he seriously looks so stupid we couldn't stop laughing. go my barts!!!
ok bye have a splendid day i love oyu
haiii!!!! I was going to appologize about not posting here for a bit, but school has had me um. not busy at all really I just kept forgetting. sorry!
I was really freaking out about highschool but after 3 weeks its honestly fine. cool, even. radical. dare I say I actually am having somewhat of a blast? I feel like with the school being so big, nobody's worried about making my life hell anymore. so I'm having fun!!! I'm doing all of my main classes online and they're honestly fun I love my history class. then I go in-person for electives so like, I'm only going for the stuff I'm actually interested in. I get there at lunch so I have some time with my buddyyy and then we have 5th hour agriculture together so that's neat. then we have study hall together too, and then my study hall class is the same as my facs class so I just stay there. facs is home ec by the way if you're ANCIENT... then I have art and I get to go home!!! three entire classes!!! ugh it's awesome.
the first friday of the year, my agriculture teacher brought her dog in and you'll never guess what her name is. are you ready? ok. her name is Portia the Platinum Princess. get real. she was bred to be a showdog but then covid happened and they tossed her out and my teacher wound up with her. my class fed her an entire bag of bugles.
also last weekend I was bored so I had a tea party with some friends. it was actually so fun I love event planning. we had neat decor and I made a bunch of treats and whatnot. I might add pictures somewhere if I want to email the pictures to my computer but ughhh. anyway I tried a new recipe, and they were little sandwich cookies!!! the cookies were kind of like sugar cookies, and the filling was buttercream and ugh they're so fire. I made the filling vanilla, cherry and strawberry. I did however forget that I hate strawberry flavored things, but luckily my friend loved them so she took some. the cherry are magical and ethereal. I brought some to school and everyone loved them. huzzah!!!
oh also since the last post I got another monster high doll!!! I got scary sweet bday frankie and I think I'll get draculaura next. idk if I wanna get cleo or not I'm not obsessed w her outfit in that set. also on my hit list is fearbook draculaura she's so cute. and also the monster fest ones are so cute. also I think my grandma is scheming to get me one because last time I was at her house she was asking me all about them and which ones I like most LOL. she's the best!!!
sorry I'm really stuggling to remember anything that's happened since I last posted. I've really just been focused on school for the most part, highkey flopping on guitar honestly it's at the point where I'm dreading lessons cause I feel like I'm wasting his time. but we ball!!!!! I keep telling myself its because I'm busy with school and don't have time to practice but that literally is not true. like maybe sometimes but its not like I seriously don't have ANY time. anyway. mcr brainrot is actually getting really bad please send help. I'm so obsessed I've been wanting to learn just ONE song on guitar but due to my aforementioned flopping its not going too great. I cannot play for shit what happened I used to be good!!!!! whatever
for back to school shopping I got some skate shoes cause my mom is paranoid about me rolling my ankle even though I've just been going in circles in the driveway. but I guess she has a point cause I've fallen over even doing that LOL. they're the old skool vans and I love them... I also got some red converse! they're platform like my green ones so when christmas comes around you already KNOW I'm wearing one of each for spirit week. and also i have a misfits sweater thats supposed to look knit. i'm actually so excited just for that outfit.
ok also I have a car lined up for me from my grandpa when I get to driving and I'm so scared. my parents call me sheldon because I'm seriously terrified of driving (they had a big bang theory phase and watched the entire show). like I'm excited to have more freedom and just go places on my own but driving is so scary. especially in the high school parking lot oh god. my mom has almost been hit like 10 times already trying to get out of there. everyone at my school SUCKS at driving they pmo. but my mom said something about going to an empty paking lot to try driving and that's fun i guess!
ok I guess that's all!!! byebye have a wonderful awesome magical weekend!!!!!!!